If we’re real life friends or you’ve been reading between the lines, you’ll know that 2016 was a bad year. Back in January, I decided that 2017 would be the year I stopped giving a fuck, and thus, DGAF has become my word of the year.
That doesn’t mean I don’t care, but I’m determined to only put my energy into the things I value – my relationships with my friends and family, a career I enjoy, partners who deserve my time/energy and, of course, food. Thus, I got a badass black cat, left agency life and moved back to Lincoln.
But while I’ve been living my life, Lexi Bites has been languishing. Today I’m finally ready to confess all of my blogging sins over the past year. Recognizing the problem is the first step, right?
I hate cooking for one.
I believe in the old adage that the way to a partner’s heart is through his/her stomach. I didn’t start cooking for real until 1999 when I moved in with my online Canadian boyfriend (that’s another blog post) and didn’t stop until my marriage to M ended. If there’s no one to cook for, I’m out.
Cooking for one feels foreign and weird. Sure, I’ll happily spend three days making you lasagne bolognese with homemade pasta, but just for me? Nah. But that was the old me. New me is all about eating what I want for a change – whether that’s duck confit or a piece of cheese while standing in front of the fridge.
I’m no longer that Lexi.
Lexi Bites was always more than just a blog. It was about nurturing relationships through the exploration of food. When that life ended, I felt lost. A year later, after some therapy and a Bright Eyes-inspired compass tattoo (via the song Make War), I feel more like myself than ever.
I don’t believe in myself.
I have been blessed to meet so many bloggers over the years, and I’ve seen many of them soar to success. However, I’ve always been convinced my recipes/photos/writing/effort will never be good enough. But this is the year of DGAF. The only thing I can truly control is developing great content and recipes that reflect who I am right now.
Food blogging is hard.
It takes an ungodly amount of time to create just one post. There’s recipe development/testing, cooking, food styling, photography and photo post-processing, writing, posting and then promotion. Oh, and then someone has to do the dishes. With three jobs, a cat and a social life, I haven’t been motivated to make the time. But when I do, I absolutely love it.
The Future of Lexi Bites
After confession comes absolution. I’m keeping the name Lexi Bites, but refining my blog POV. You’ll still find internationally-inspired recipes, but none of the eye-rolling travel humblebraggery or tedious recipes. Instead, expect more posts on how I actually cook and eat – whether in good times or bad.
Thank you for being a part of this journey, and see you soon.